Misty: Why didn't you hang with Elayna today?
Jerome: I have work to do
Misty: You were isolated
I asked her to talk to Ieuan for me...
Jerome: im still working just taking a break
Misty: and she was telling him that I like him soooooooo much.
Jerome: to tell him what?
No just to see if he liked me
Jerome: oh, y didnt u ask?
Misty: cuz I didn't have the balls to get my feelings hurt
Jerome: lol, so howd it turn out
3:10amJerome: too bad
3:10amMisty: He doesn't like me
3:10amJerome: whatd he say
3:10amMisty: she says
3:10amJerome: oh ok
3:10amMisty: that it was a mistakes
I should go lez
3:11amJerome: lol, i doubt u could
3:11amMisty: maybe not. But the only people to think I'm attractive are gay men and females
3:11amJerome:eh, what can u do?
Im single now too
so no worries
3:12amMisty: yeah but you okay with it
3:12amJerome: ...not really
I am not used to not having people hit on me
it's a new phenomenom
I'm kinna pissed but I expected this
well you seem to have good instincts so why dont u follow them?
cuz I'm not a cold person...yet
well thats good
Some just give up because they fail
I guess I'm not like that
which can be a strength or weakness
youre too young for my kind of cynascism
But I wanna be cold like you!!
it's not all it's cracked up to be
like when you say youre fst, but then elayna would kill to look like you
be grateul for what you have
my world is kinda lonely sometimes
But you don't seem to care!
That's the beauty
I do care...
trust me when I say this
Stay hopeul as long as you can, I gave up my emotions years ago and I am better in many ways, but I would die to understand the emotions that I used to have again
What? Pain and having your feelings hurt all the time?
Emotions are a waste
emotions let you know youre alive
whats the point in living if you cant feel alive
You won't have to cry or feel that yucky feeling in your chest...
or that pain when you;re trying to hild back tears
I cry everyday
I stare at the ceiling and cry for no reason
I blast my music so loud, so I dont have to hear myself thing
So I dont have to wake up and realize that my life is just a broadway show with great musical numbers that no one understands
trust me, I have never been more honest in my life
It hurts to be so honest
I mean physically, my head is pounding
THis happens whenever I try to understand or deal with what I cant understand
Dont feel sorry for me, but dont envy me either
I didn't mean to bring up something so deep
not youre fault I can always stop, or not start