MiniVacay

So here's the thing, I haven't left the house in five days so obviously I have nothing to show you. I have a few thing going on this weekend and I will overload you when I get all that in and processed... Latta

5:00am

5:00am make me anxious

The subtle subconscious anticipation

It’s overwhelming

To know that I have no idea where time will take me

Encourages courage

Impressions of dreams

Cut with worry

I’m not in control

Nothing changes

5:01am

A Loosing Game

Each drop of sweat seeping from my pores is loosening my grip

I am loosing control

In truth I am falling

I am falling back into the hole that I just climbed out of

I am falling back into the criminal abyss

The handle bar to which I grasp is rusted

My emotional void is fading to black

This bedroom is my asylum

I do not want to leave

I awake to sunrise begging for it to set

In truth I am ready, I am ready to let go

3/5/07 2:17am (Poem)

It’s hard for me to carry sleep

When these issues weigh like tons on my mind

What’s mine is mine

What’s yours is yours

What’s mine, for whatever reason is yours

It’s hard for me to care for what’s yours

When you never let me forget

What’s mine is yours

What yours is yours

What mine is nothing?

It’s hard for me to live with you

With a car dangling over my head

With your eyes over my shoulder

When I’m pummeled and powerless

When you scream grow up

When you cut off my balls

When you hold the clever remove my roots

When you dangle security like a carrot to a mule

And there’s nothing I can do